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When I became a Muslim I had no idea that Hijab was obligatory .I thought it only needed when we pray or go to Mosque .Even for the prayer I used to wear a see- through Hijab ,which was barely covering my hair .
Before wearing Hijab I started with long sleeve shirts ,then started wearing skirts ,which was really a challenge for me ,because I was totally not used to that.
After a while step by step I started getting used to my new clothes and started wearing bandanna like style Hijab from time to time ,when I was going Shopping or library,or Masjid
So I started wearing Hijab this way everywhere ,except for my work place .
I used to work in retail and was always on public in a very crowded work place ,so it was a big challenge for me to change my looks completely .
All I could do is to make Dua to Allah to make this task easy on me .I didn't know how and when I will put Hijab on ,but after a while I started to have a feeling of guilt and shame for not obeying the commands of Allah Subhana wa Taala .I started feeling ashamed to go out without covering my hair .I started hide my hair in a pony tail .I felt so strange to leave my hair down in front of everyone .
One day ,on Friday, I went to a Mosque for Jummah prayer and wrapped my bandanna Hijab around my hair ,but covering my neck also and it was almost proper Hijab.
After that, the whole day wherever I went I wouldn't take my Hijab off .Since that day I decided I'm ready !!!
I went to work next day with my Hijab on .
When I was opening a store ,one lady came up to me and said I love your Scarf ,it looks very nice ,I really love it .She asked if I wear it because I'm a Muslim ,I said yes .She said it looks really beautiful and she left .The same day I got a lot of complements from people about my scarf and it made me feel so much better .Few days later I started wearing proper Hijab .I was using too many pins though ,making sure it wont slip off .
So this is how I started.I still was wearing pants and long shirts then started wearing skirts .
It was hard for a while I'm not going to say it was easy ,but I got used to it and at the end I knew why am I doing this .I do it for my Creator ,to please Him only ,and not to please people .
A year ago I decided to wear Jilbab .
I know there is difference of opinion about what Jilbab is and about covering the face ,which is my next step inshaAllah, but when I read that during time of the Prophet ,peace be upon him,women did not even go out or their houses if they didn't have Jilbab, I told myself that I will not go out of my house tomorrow without my Jilbab .It was the only one I owned at that time .Black Saudi abaya/jilbab ,which was a gift from overseas ,alhamdulillah ..
So this was my choice and it was my decision ..
I don't want to judge anyone who doesn't wear Hijab or Jilbab ,because I know it doesn't come easy and it takes time and transition ,especially for the revert sisters .
May Allah give us taqwa and understanding of our Deeen and may all of us sisters follow the example of
great women ,Sahabiyat (RA)and may Allah perfect our character and make us like them ..
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